Looking Life Over

Simple changes are having an enormous impact on my life. Having Internet at the house, staying home more, cooking for myself and so many other little changes have caused an obvious difference in my Lifestyle.

Some insights have appeared along my path to change. I found that in fact I was bored to the point of distraction. I distracted myself with blogging for six months. I thought that if I was doing something I loved, it would bear good fruit.

The fruit it bore was totally unexpected. I have learned that I have become absolutely bored. My boredom was causing me to go out of balance.

It was the imbalance that was creating the discomfort in my life, and it was escalating. I was literally numbing myself out for hours a day in front of the computer screen.

Wishing to have a quality blog, and possibly one that could create income, I spent a lot of money buying various services and information. It was the same old story from years ago. You can spend many dollars on the Internet chasing a little bit of income.

I spend less time writing now, and am enjoying the time I spend on the Internet more. I have found an online simulation game that is fun and keeps me alert when I am online.

Sticking to the websites where I play, also keeps me away from reading the news in detail. That alone is a quality of life improvement.

Life is about change, but I have learned to do change in small doses.

I no longer need chaos in my life to get me moving in a new direction. All that is necessary is to feel that twinge of discomfort that comes with being out of balance and I am ready to look for alternatives.

I once read that it got so boring in Heaven that eighty percent of the Angels left Heaven to create the Life we now experience in this reality. Strange how Perfect can become boring when there is nothing new to experience.

Smiles. ET

Published in: on August 22, 2008 at 11:11 pm  Comments (3)  
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Why Smoke?

After fifty years of smoking tobacco in various forms, I finally figured out why I like to smoke. I smoke to distract myself. I am bored. I fidget. I am oral in my fixations. I smoke tobacco., because I enjoy it.

I really like to smoke my pipes. I have a Meerschaum pipe collection approaching a dozen pipes. They are beautifully carved and darken with age. I have had some of these pipes for over twenty years.

Smoking began for me about the age of 12. I would hide my Camels in my newspaper box under the old papers. The box was dark blue, and was located under a huge Oak tree at the corner where I caught the school bus.

I have always smoked the stronger brands of tobacco. Every time I tried to stop smoking I gained 15 founds. By age forty-five I was big-time stressed, greatly overweight, and hit the floor with a massive heart attack.

After my heart surgery I had a difficult time not smoking. That is when I found pipe smoking. I found an article in the New England Journal of Medicine stating that pipe smoking did not present additional risk for cancer, especially mouth cancer.

There is an art to pipe smoking and it is fun to learn. You fidget a lot with a pipe. It distracts you when it goes out, or clogs. You learn to keep it clean. It covers my oral fixations quite nicely.

A pipe covers all the reasons I enjoy smoking. It also removes the biggest problem associated with smoking. When you smoke a pipe:

You do not inhale pipe smoke.

And that is why pipe smoking works. You get to play with your pipes and tobacco; you get to smoke, but you break your addiction to tobacco by not inhaling.

An addiction happens when we over-do a behavior chasing the positive side of the experience. When we over-do an experience, it throws our life out of balance. To overcome an addiction, we need to make peace with it. We need to bring the behavior back in balance.

I have not given up sugar, alcohol, or tobacco in my life. I have brought them back in balance. I enjoy the positive parts of my relationship with these chemicals, but I always seek to minimize there negative consequences on my health.

It all comes down to balance.

Smiles. ET

Published in: on July 12, 2008 at 11:53 pm  Comments (2)  
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You duz It!

A New Day

A New Day

My life became different when I realized;

“You duz it. This is your life. Change what you don’t like.”

I found that problems were like weeds in my garden. I could ignore them, or even find them fascinating for awhile, but eventually they have to go. I have found it is easier to get rid of weeds when they have little roots and haven’t developed thorns.

When something is out of balance in my life I now sense it and make adjustments as quickly as I can. I try to see “Problems,” as situations needing a solution. I look for solutions more quickly these days.

I have found some answers that I know work in Life. I know we all walk through our stuff, but the folks that stop repeating the same problems are the ones who see the part they are playing in the mix. They learn to change themselves, not others.

So darn, there have been some tough spots along the way. Sometimes I have wished others didn’t play so rough, but sometimes it took “nasty” to get me to deal with what I needed to deal with.

I was told by one of my teachers that our lives are divided into seven year periods. When I did some looking, I saw what he was speaking about. I knew the major events of my life, and began to see how they fit in to definite seven year blocks of time.

It seems like every seven years I change direction in my life, resolve old dramas, or head off on new adventures. It feels like I have lived many lives within this life.

When I saw how simple choices created major changes in my life, I began to pay more attention to what I was choosing. I also saw how by simply changing my reactions to a situation, the situation changed for the better.

I now say, “I need to see this situation differently.” It may take a moment, but I usually am able to see my part of the mix by doing this. When I accept my part of the drama, and disengage, I can move on.

It has all been a part of learning, “You duz it!”

Smiles. ET

Published in: on July 12, 2008 at 2:32 am  Leave a Comment  
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A No Internet Day

It is one of those days that I sometimes experience here in Guatemala. It is the Rainy Season. It is cloudy and drizzle is falling very lightly. It is a very sleepy day without the Internet.

It is becoming clearer to me that the Internet consumes a great deal of my time. I find it interesting that I can stay so busy online. The hours disappear so quickly.

The Internet runs in the background of my life. When I have no connection, I sense all the information I am cut off from. I can’t read the news. I can’t research the subjects I am interested. More importantly, I can’t read my email.

Email connects me to others. I have developed a network of friends who are now spread around the world. Many of those people have lived in San Pedro for extended periods. They are now traveling further, or have returned home.

We communicate sporadically. Yet, we are all connected by links through other people. One way or the other, we have an idea of what each is doing.

It is fun also to stay in touch with those who return here each year like birds in flight. When these folks return to Lake Atitlan you know the weather is changing up North. Their return is one of the ways I know the Seasons will soon change here.

Each day I try to communicate with one person. This means I write them a letter. That doesn’t work with text messaging. My son has equated my emails to books. I would call them essays. My longer emails are written that way for a reason.

First, I have my friends’ total attention for a moment. I can tell them what is happening in my life. I can ask questions about what is going on with them. I can comment on the things I know they are experiencing.

It takes two to communicate. I am working on keeping the process going.

Recently, I read that the key to maintaining a friendship is staying in touch. Friendship is created by communication. Break the communication for too long and the friendship withers.

Email is such an easy way to keep the communication going. When my Internet comes back up you know where I will be.

I checked this morning. They said it would be just an hour. It’s another rainy day in Guatemala.

Smile. ET

Me and the Internet

It has become very clear to me that my life is directed by the choices I make. I am watching those choices more closely.

Roses also have thorns

Roses also have thorns

I know that my thoughts and actions put energy into Life. I am a part of the total mix. I contribute to it, and am affected by all that happens in my life as a result.

I know that I can choose to see things differently. When I do this my experience becomes different. What I focus on, I give my energy to. This energy exchange compounds when I resist what I see.

I do not choose to resist, but rather to see things differently.

I see the Internet as the potential for free expression of thought and commerce. I also see the efforts being made by those who wish to stiffle the Internets’ spontaneous growth.

Those who feel a need to control the Internet for their own purposes, are driven by the fear it will loosen their control over the world they perceive. That may be true. The Internet has the potential to change everything.

The Internet has the potential to grant worldwide Freedom of thought and information exchange. It also has the potential for the control of all that information.

I am surprised no one sees the sleeping Dragon in our midst. It currently directs 80% of the traffic on the Internet. It controls what you see and where you are directed for information.

A twitch and whole continents no longer communicate. Talk of the “wrong” subjects, and your blog can be erased, or traffic misdirected in an instant.

The sleeping Dragon acts without conscience. Few see how easily it can be misdirected even in its slumber.

CERN is currently creating what they call a Virtual Internet. It will gather the Internet under one controlling system worldwide. The Virtual Internet is being brought online now and will be fully functional by 2012.

The software is already created that will know in an instant anything and everything about anyone. Who will control the Future Internet and the software directing it is yet to be seen.

I choose to support Open Source software and the enterprises it has spawned. I believe that the free sharing of ideas for a common good provides more benefit than profits for a few.

My energies are now directed toward supporting this free flow of information on the Internet. I see a need for the balance of information exchange and commerce within the worldwide Internet community.

I direct my energies toward seeking a more perfect balance in my Internet experience, because my Internet experience is a large part of my current life experience.

I prefer happy experiences, and I hope that is what your Internet hours bring you as well.

Smiles. ET

Published in: on July 7, 2008 at 2:52 am  Leave a Comment  
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